I've written over 200 pages, so why is it so hard to write the ending? Why do I keep putting it off? These are the questions I find I've been asking myself a lot lately. As a general rule, despite the chaos in my life, a house full of kids (I have 6) and my numerous interests (which don't include a warm fuzzy feeling when I've cleaned my house), I've generally been pretty good about writing three pages a day on my novels. Well, that is until recently.
So, what happened? I've always been a firm believer in "slow and steady wins the race." Why the change now? I think it's because I'm close to the end of my novel, or at least the end of the first draft. I know I'm not alone in this. I've talked to others with the same problem. Is it that after investing so many hours in crafting a riveting story line, we can't figure out how to end it? I don't think so. At least, that's not the case for me. I know what is supposed to happen, but conveying that to the reader is another matter. I think it's more a matter, almost, of saying goodbye to an old friend.
Writing is an escape. I travel to far off places, eat exotic food, and meet exciting people when I write, despite the fact that I'm still in my den with one or more sick kids. My characters keep me company. Maybe ending a book is a little like saying goodbye to an old friend. Of course, that doesn't mean I can't have new adventures with my characters in other books. I even plan to, but still, up a novel, is not only exciting, but a little sad. Maybe that's part of why I have trouble with the end.
Of course, there's also the perfectionist in me that comes into play. I've spent so long developing characters and plot that I want that I want the finish to be perfect. This is probably the biggest factor contributing to my procrastination of ending my novel. I think though, that it's time I take a leap, write an ending, and I can always fix it after I finish it.
Time to go now and finish that novel--later!